Don't you hate it when you're just not thinking and you say stupid things? I do that ALL the time. I offend people ALL the time. And the worse thing about it is that I offend people I love. I think I'm just teasing or I'm much too honest, and then when it's much too late I realize I have offended. I hate it when I do this. I really do.
My problem is that I'm not a mean person. If I were mean then this wouldn't be so painful when I do this. I would be happy when I offend. But since I'm not mean I'm sick to my stomach when this happens. I want to bury my head in the sand for shame. I want to die. It's an awful feeling to have offended. I don't recommend it to anyone.
I have offended a dear friend. And there is no worse feeling to know that I have done this. I'm sure that I have caused much heartache in her life as well and this is unbearable for me. But, of course, because she is a much nicer and better person than I, she will never tell me this.
So, the reason I'm writing this is because I want you to know that I know I'm an idiot. I don't intentionally want to hurt people. I say stupid things They mean nothing. Because I'm an idiot.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
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Jo, you are so hard on yourself! Those that don't speak out wish they would and those that do wish for control....I can totally relate. Hope you are feeling better, all I can say is, I know how you feel!
I agree with what Kaye said. I am like you though. I say what I have on my mind and it most the time comes out in a way that offends people when I really didn't mean it to, most the time anyway. :) We love you Jo!!
Ditto to the girls above. As I was reading your post I was thinking that You are way too hard on yourself. We all say stupid things out of jest and I am the BIGGEST offender. I often come home after a get together and go over things that I said and I worry about all the people I offended that night. It is silly though and you just hope that people know where your heart is and I know your heart only means kindness:) Love You Jo!
You're the best Jo! I would type more but I'm tending a baby. Everyone else said it already.
One of the things I love most about you is your honesty and straighforwardness. You may think it's a curse, but I think it's a blessing. Love you, Jo!
All I have to say is I love you....Your one of a kind women....More sensitive than me.....hahah j/k we both know that that's not true... It was a very sweet note... take care, bye you....
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