I feel like I never get anything done. Seriously. I wake up and the activities never stop. And yet NOTHING gets done. How does that happen? Seriously, I want to know how that happens. I wake up and get dressed at 6:30 -7a. I make the bed and spruce up the house. I get the kids up. We eat breakfast, then I help the kids get ready for school. They clean their rooms and we're off to school by 8-ish. I take the dogs out for their morning run then head to the gym. If there's time I'll squeeze in an errand before I come home, maybe do a chore or two, shower, grab a bite to eat and then go pick up Carly. After Carly comes home is where I can't figure out what happens. Sometimes, I can squeeze in a couple more errands, but sometimes I'll come home with the intent to do something off the endless 'to do' list, but something happens. It's like I get sucked into this black hole and before I know it it's time to go get Robert.
When Rob comes home, forget about it. I'm done. Completely fried. I pick up Rob at 3:30. We go straight from school to either Tennis or Karate. Then home to eat dinner (usually 6p by now) While I'm preparing dinner, I'll run through spelling words, addition flash cards and 'love words' (which are really sight words). We eat dinner and then it's off to baths and bed. 8pm and nothing has gotten done: the dogs automatic waterer hose still needs to be repaired, more sprinkler heads need to be repaired, the gopher still needs to be killed. My bills, papers, movies, kids toys & closets still need to be organized. And that's just a small portion of what all needs to be done. And I'm so tired. So so tired. It's 9:30 and I'll be in bed by 10 which is actually late. I'm usually in bed shortly after I clean the kitchen by 9. So the question still remains.... where did all my energy go? I used to be able to do it all. Now? Nothin'! I get nothing done!
Needless to say, I want my energy back! Seriously, I'm begging for just a little bit of my energy back. But then again, the more I think about it, I'm too tired to care.
I'm not even going to try to fill in the huge gap between the last time I wrote and now. So I'm just starting over.
Honestly, life is hard, but good. Mike is gone a lot but continues to do his best at being a great father and husband. I've been trying to chip away at all the household projects I've got on my list: killing gophers (still!), fertilizing and tilling the flower beds, an endless chore of repairing sprinklers and many other mini projects. It's funny how even though both kids are in school now I still have no time to do all that needs to be done AND keep up with just the regular every day chores.
The kids love school. I'm so greatful for my kids. They're so good! Carly is a blast to hang out with and Robert is just so good. There are so many qualities I see of Mike's in him. Honestly, this is both good and bad. :) But mostly good. They both love school. The first day they were so excited. They both got up early early like it was Christmas. So funny! Here they are the first day of school.
I'm still trying to get used to the daily schedule but it's coming along.
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about how life is. We think we're in charge of our lives and to a certain extent we are. But for the most part we aren't. There is no doubt in my mind that the only control we have in our lives is how we deal with what happens to us. That is the only control we have. We may think that if we make all the right choices and if do all the right things then somehow, some way we are exempt from all the bad things that happen in the world. But, oh, how naive that is! Things are happening in my life that I have no control over. But I do have control over how I treat my family and friends and what my attitude is going to be for the day. I have control over ..... really what else do I have control over? I mean, really I try to get things done and something ALWAYS comes up so that I don't get the things done that I want to get done. But really what is more important than the way we treat our family and friends? Especially when the times are tough? That truly is the only thing we have control over. Anyway, I'm sorry to be so serious. I just felt the need to share.